Destiny

Long time no write in my blog ;D

Today exactly March 15th, 2017 and now, I am 26 years old, 1 month and 11 days. Now, I am not "gadis galau" anymore, ya galau karena cowok, kuliah ataupun pekerjaan. I am a wife now, pricesely on December 10th, 2016. I have a husband who always caring and loving me in good and bad times. A man who always teach me about life, kindness and religion which brings me become a good man. Alhamdulillah....

Flashback,

So, I meet my husband in 2014 as a friend in our college. Time flies, I don't know him, I only know his name because he was the one who was admired by my friend. Next year, it turns out he was trying to attract my attention. It was not escape from my friend's support who are always there to comfort me when bad and good times. Yap, exaclty 3 months before he left me to go to Netherlands continue his master degree. His name is Halim, bukan anak yang hobi bergaul, jalan2, makan2 ataupun karokean yang sering banget aku lakuin bareng temen-temen. He is quiet person, I only meet him, in class, lab or mosque, yah mungkin kurang lebih dia cuma kesana aja waktu dikampus, buktinya udah hampir 6 tahun dia gapernah tau tempat makan atau nogkrong enak disana. Then, I adore with him, karena emang suka sama cowok kalo pinter apalagi lebih pinter the reason is kalo diajak ngobrol enak, nyambung, but don't talk with him about brand, cafe, ataupun sejenis tempat2 ala2 anak gaul, ga akan ngerti dia haha. He is the person who always believed and always surrender to Him apalagi urusan jodoh. Kalo kata temen-temen "doanya kenceng ni anak". He doesn't ever be afraid to hurt even though at that time I became convinced he and compassion not behave as usual well although GR" dikitlah. First year, after continue his master degree, he return back to attend my graduation after the ceremony, he immediately proposed me, ya seneng banget waktu itu based on my dreams "semoga abis wisuda ada yang ngelamar". Singkat cerita, we live quite LDR more than one year. After he graduate on September, then he come back, directly we got engaged on October and got married on December. Cepet juga ya kalo dipikir-pikir. 

Yess...that's the secret of God that I had never thought before, that I never thought when I first saw him in class, when we first gathered dinner together with friends, when us do jogging in Sabuga. Never have thought and it never occurred. The mystery of God, which made me finally choose ITB for further study, and then meet him in the second year, in which time he was already willing to go to the Netherlands, that means he's studying at ITB can only to meet me "ini mah GR banget si". God is never wrong to make plans, God is always right unite, God always gives the best at that time that we had never thought as a human. That's the short story of the journey to continue master degree, lessons brings me to meet with my soulmate.

One month married, exactly the second week of January, we get sustenance, sustenance never unexpected, yes I am definitely pregnant, bahagia yang luar biasa waktu itu. Always give thanks to God's plans were given to me and my husband, the day continues to run, households live life happily without lacking anything, have family that has always loved us. Life is so beautiful, although had occurred once, twice a debate which takes 30 minutes yah namanya juga pengantin baru.

Three months has passed, through married life, to be a wife and expectant mother. On March 8, we both went to the Obstetricians, after being checked by ultrasound of the fetus can not be seen but when it has entered the age of 11 weeks 5 days gestation, finally I checked with transvaginal ultrasound, yes it hurt to use the tool to check, after the fetus look, but what happens, it turns out the doctor says the fetus in my womb does not develop, because at the age of 11 weeks 5 days but he was an 8-week and there was no heartbeat. Really hurt, at that time we both looked at each other can only hold back the tears in front of the doctor. Doctors do not know what the exact causes, but I knew that day, that night its hurt, pain over the loss of something anticipated, sick because it never occurred to no incident of this kind, it hurts because it can not willingly accept the reality. In the next morning we decided to look for another doctor for a second opinion, after seeing the doctor later, was indeed the fetus can not help anymore and must be removed because otherwise it would be dangerous to myself. Cries did not stop until the evening on the day that the fetus must be removed by means of vacuum. Vacuum is a tool to remove the fetus as kurtase. Once the action is completed, I still could not stop crying, I still could not accept the fact that I was not pregnant anymore.

A week after the incident I did not work for the restoration of the events experienced. My husband every day is always an encouragement, always giving me love and affection relentless. 

Yes it acts of God, never occurred and unexpectedly, just like a mate. God's plan is much more beautiful, God's plan is always right and the sustenance that God's love will never be confused. Thanks for my husband who is always there, always assured me with all the destiny that we experience, which is always struggling, always trying to keep smiling, always give love endlessly. Lucky me to have you by my side.

A letter to You :)

Hey my blogger long time no write.. yapp almost a year I don't write and share. Now, I need to write, to share, to tell you about my feeling. Actually, I should be grateful to God because the graces that have been given to me until now. I just want to write may be like a letter to God....

Dear God,
Now, I am 22 years old, I don't know exactly I should be happy or sad. Yaa, I've got bachelor's degree. But, I am not an employee or a master student now. I only a person who hasn't regular activity. I am not a jobseeker like fresh graduate to do. I explain to You what I to do everyday. I wake up in early morning to pick up my little sister to go to her campus, after that I only clean my house since we don't have maid and I do the work until 10.00 am next I watching tv, youtube and others or I am going to the mall with my boyfriend and my best friend. I really enjoy my days, I feel free without assessment.
I re-think again, what should I do, I want to make my dream come true continue my master program, or work in company and get married with my boyfriend. Yes, its my plan God. I've had effort and pray to You. And now, I sincere with Ur decision. Give me the best with all of choices.
If, I tell you about my success and failure it is too long to write. I've got success more than enough and million thanks its not enough to say. And I know that is not a smooth path I am facing, I also got failure in my path, I've not yet got a scholarship to continue my study in overseas. Give me the best God, and I hope my best is my plan, my ambition and my dream. But, if it is not the best show me the way to get my best from You.

 Adakah Hukum Karma dalam Islam ??

Hari ini gw mau ngebahas masalah karma, karena gw juga bingung apa karma itu emang ada dalam agama islam, dan setelah gw selusuri ternyata karma berasal dari agama Hindu dan Budha yang artinya pengumpulan efek-efek (akibat) tindakan/perilaku/sikap dari kehidupan yang lampau dan yang menentukan nasib saat ini, maka karma berkaitan erat dengan kelahiran kembali (Reinkarnasi). Segala tindakan/perilaku/sikap baik maupun buruk seseorang saat ini juga akan membentuk karma seseorang dikehidupan berikutnya. Dan jujur selama ini gw percaya sama yang namanya karma, apalagi orang sering bilang "hukum karma itu berlaku" yang jelas buat gw merinding kalo ngelakuin kesalahan sama seseorang. Sebenernya yang pas ngebahas tentang ini seorang ulama daripada gw tapi disini gw akan mencoba berbagi informasi tentang karma. Dalam islam dalam QS. Al-Zalzalah: 7 dan 8 berbunyi "Karena itu, barangsiapa yang mengerjakan kebaikan meski seberat zarrah, dia pasti akan melihat(balasan)nya. Dan barangsiapa yang mengerjakan kejahatan meski seberat zarrah pun, dia pasti akan melihat (balasan)nya". Mungkin dari arti surat itu kebanyakan orang berpikir "balesan=karma" yang sebenernya ga ada maksud buat mempercayai agama lain.

Dan ini hasil googling gw mengai karma :

Mekanisme pahala dan dosa ini tidak akan terlihat begitu saja dalam kehidupan lahiriah seorang manusia.Oleh karena itu dosa dan pahala adalah rambu yang menjaga manusia untuk selalu taat pada perintah dan larangan Allah.

Kehidupan seorang manusia dalam Islam tidak habis dalam suatu babak seperti konsep yang di yakini oleh agama Kristen dan dosa seluruhnya ditebus oleh Yesus.Tapi Islam adalah Din yang saling berkaitan antara kehidupan dunia dan akhirat.

Balasan dari Allah dan Manusia

Ketika kehidupan manusia berakhir,dia harus mempertanggung jawabkan hidupnya pada pemberi kehidupan.Sementara dalam konteks hablumminannas (hubungan manusia dengan manusia),bila seseorang bberbuat baik pada orang lain,maka ia akan mendapatkan balasan yang baik.Sebaliknya ,bila berbuat jahabt,maka ia akan merasakan kejahatan dari orang lain.

Dalam Islam habluminannas dan habluminallah tidak dapat dipisahkan.Orang yang berbuat baik di dunia akan mendapatkan balasan yang baik dari orang lain dan di akhirat nanti akan mendapatkan ganjaran yang baik dari Allah.Begitu pula sebaliknya.

”Dari Abu Hurairah..Ia berkata:Tealah bersabda Rasulullah saw:”Barang siapa melepaskan satu kesulitan dunia seorang muslim,niscaya Allah akan melepaskan satu kesulitan akhirat.Dan barang siapa yang memberikan kelonggaran seseorang yang kesulitan niscaya Allah akan memberikan kelonggaran baginya di dunia dan akhirat.Dan barang siapa yang menutup aib seseorang muslim niscaya Allah akan menutup aibnya di dunia dan akhirat dan Allah akan menolong seseorang selama ia menolong saudaranya.”HR.Bukhari  

Sobat, Islam tidak mengenal karma. Dalam Islam,orang akan mempertanggung jawabkan amal perbuatannya di hari kiamat.Tidak ada kelahiran klembali di dunia sebagai akibat dari perbuatan yang dilakukan seseorang.

Manusia akan menuai balasan dari apa yang dilakukannya langsung dari Si pemberi kehidupan..Tidak ada waktu atau kesempatan untuk menebus atau mencuci dosa ketika ajal telah menjemput.

Yang jelas yang bisa diambil dari sini intinya "Allah itu adil, dan ga ada yang bisa mengalahkan keadilan Allah yang telah diberikan kepada kita", sekilas informasi tentang karma yang gw buat, semoga bermanfaat ya :)

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Sandfreni Azharuddin, a name given by my parents on the 4th of February 1991 exactly the day of my birth. 

I am currently registered as a student of 8th semester of computer science University of Srivijaya and I hope to graduate in this semester.